Monday, April 04, 2005
posted at 9:53 AM
April 3, 2005-Saturday
I am listening to the prom cd right now... "…so let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink..."
Have you guys seen the movie city of angels? It's my favorite, the angel sacrificed his being as an angel for the person he loves...but the woman he loves died... it’s a very sad movie...
...and I lost an angel.
Yes. The person I am in-love with is out of my life... we're history.
Everything' over.
Jerson Cruz started studying in MISA when we were still in first year, his mom works at the office of our school, he was a heartthrob then... girls like him, they dig him. And I was wondering why those girls like him... during our recollection he wrote me a letter, it was funny and unexpected, and then I never talked to him again. Then one night, while I'm watching the TV the phone rang and I answered it, it was a guy... he told me that he's Jerson... he confessed his love for me. The next day I asked if it was him... it wasn't him. Then, that's it... that’s our last conversation.
I hardly notice him when we were in second year, I never liked him... I kept on asking or should I say pestering everyone why they like/d him... all I know about him is that he's a sports buff... together with the rest of his group. That's all, I didn't even know that he was bright in class. The reason why I didn't notice him is maybe because I'm occupied with my life... I mean me and Raphael.
Third year came... it was fun. But everything started to suck-up...Raphael, Anton, Patricia, Omi... yes. It came to a point that I realize something... I still love the person I loved so much... yes. My relationship with Raphael wasn't the nice type... so we broke up in a very blah manner... and because of the prom, Anton was starting to feel this flame again... but I don't wana choose between him and Apa... so me and Lianne thought of the least person I will like... it was Jerson. It all started as a joke... and I wish everything's a joke! We started texting each other...
I find myself attracted with Jerson through some reasons... I started liking him.
March 7:
He went to my place, things happened...
Yes. Since then, everything changed... I fought for him... I did things I never imagined I'll be doing. It was different. I was happy to be with him. Then, it hits me... I love him... I love him more than the person I have ever loved so much. I was scared then, I tell him what I feel and think... I told him once that I'm scared because he might see new girls... or go back to the person he once loved. He told me to trust him, and I did.
I did lots of sweet things... everything's gone now.
Yes. He went back to the person he left behind. And it hurts me, nothing's left for me... except for pain.
You love someone so much, and everything you did for him doesn't mean a thing. That's what I'm feeling right now... I feel that I am abused. Yes. I don't want to elaborate much on the story... just ask him.
The person me and my friends thought was nice wasn't. Everybody thought that he was serious, we all thought that this will be right. We're all wrong. We were deceived...
As much as I want to be happy... I can't. I love him. That's why I am letting him go. He's the second person I set free for his own happiness. He's the person I love most. I have nothing left to do, I took off the necklace he gave me... I'll give it back.
All I have are memories... memories which I'll treasure until I die. It will always be with me, I'll always be happy for him... but things will change. Everything will. How I wish this whole thing didn't happened... sorry for being bitter. It's just painful. So now, tell the person you love how important he/she is... you'll never know what may happen tomorrow.
I know he knows I love him... but this is what destiny gave us... this is what it has given me.
bye jerson jay bacala cruz.......
I'll see you soon, take care and be happy... :)
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And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line
I'll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
'cause tonight i'll leave my fears behind
'cause tonight i'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go
The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line
I'll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
'cause tonight i'll leave my fears behind
'cause tonight i'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go
I'll leave my fears behind
'cause tonight i'll be right at your side.
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go
But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i'm just not the one for you
http://www.soundclick.com/bands/7/halemusic.htm
bye.
-pamela gabriela santos gonzales